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NOTES 7/11/14

note about what people ask: when you tell them you are considering converting a used school bus into a living space: won’t that be expensive to drive?: like for a blog?: what’s the mpg on a bus?: have you considered joining the national guard instead?: how will you shower?: like a drug dealer? like for a reality show? how will you lock the door?: like a child molester? won’t that cost a lot to upkeep?: how will you start a family?: have you given up?

note about encouraging the hobbies of others: my roommate likes glossy magazines: fashion and celebrity: she will show me pictures of: examples: Rihanna and I will say “oh hello”: and she will show me more pictures of Rihanna and I will say “oh hello” for each until there are no more pictures of Rihanna: or pictures of Jena Malone and I will say “oh hello”: and she will show me more pictures of Jenna Malone and I will say “oh hello” for each until there are no more pictures of Jenna Malone: or pictures of Emmy Rossum and I will say “oh hello”: and she will show me more pictures of Emmy Rossum and I will say “oh hello” for each until there are no more pictures of Emmy Rossum: and so on: and this goes on until my night alarm rings: my night alarm reminds me to sleep: even if I am not sleepy: before: before I learned about her hobby I would say “yeah” or “okay” when she showed me: examples: pictures of Aubrey Plaza: pictures of Emma Stone: pictures of Olivia Wilde: and she would not show me more pictures: because I “seem(ed) bored”: and then she would seem bored: somewhere else: in the apartment: the air changed: felt like bored air: I do not know how I stumbled upon saying “oh hello”: or how “oh hello” opens the door for her hobby: which in a way is now my hobby too: before: I recall trying “nice”: “whoa yeah”: “hmmm yeah”: “wowya”: “yolo”: “damnnnnn”

note about how this is an age when all kinds of dreams for all kinds of people now come true: example

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NOTES 7/9/14

note about a bird near my office: can mimic the sound of a car alarm: a distant car alarm: the bird starts up: overheard reaction: “wait I need to check on my car” 

note about worrying: the more I watch how-to videos: the more I will depend on them: note example: I wonder “what if I shampoo the wrong way?”: then after how-to shampoo video: I learn that yes I shampoo the wrong way: not now: I watched the how-to shampoo video

note video example was bad example: because I was shampooing wrong: correct shampooing video was helpful: however: now doubting the correctness of my other daily activities: to watch this evening: how-to: clean litter box: load dishwasher: fold clothes: vacuum carpet

note about my jokes falling flat: it’s a terrible habit to think everything is funny: what is worse: communicating the funny thought: it never works: note example: at Indy Reads bookstore: near the recycling bins: for work: the bookstore manager: mentioned receiving a mattress donation instead of book donation: funny thought occurred: I said funny thought: “this place isn’t called Indy Sleeps”: a frown occurred: then tornado siren began: a fortunate intervention 

note about forgetting something brilliant I said once: it was about pockets: it was said three years ago: she didn’t remember where: or what we were wearing: she remembered I said something brilliant or beautiful about pockets: one or the other: but I stopped saying brilliant or beautiful things about other things after that: it was about the time we broke up: then: if I remember what I said about pockets: or visit Vegas: email

NOTES 7/7/14

note about water: falling then not: without clouds: out of the blue: the actual blue sky: am unsure how many times in the last few weeks: seems like a lot: there are maps: note they show the maps on tv: weather channels: news programs: on the maps there are places without water: they are red: brown and red: that brown and red color: sometimes so red and so brown it is purple: I think about hot purple land: hot purple grass and trees: with purple fire: this is a land inside of me: before maps on tv: one more childish thing I can’t shake: note the colors cover most of the map area: not my map area: my map area is green: there are a lot of green things here: but not everything is green: personality on tv discussing the map remarks: “a lot of places could use some relief”: note a lot of places could use some relief

note about seeing a man with prosthetic nose: I saw a man with a prosthetic nose: it was shaped very realistically: the skin tone was wrong: the man had a sun burn: almost beyond sun burn: note his burnt skin reminded me of rotisserie chicken: in contrast to the skin the nose looked bright white: however: with matching skin tones I would have never noticed his nose as being prosthetic: note I had no reason to speak to the man: however: he made me smile: he made me think about the cartoon ducks of my youth: specifically Daffy Duck: the bright beak: the dark body: their opposite natures working to form a whole: but the man’s head skin could use some relief: note the man was bald as well

note about my favorite movie: a place that could use some relief: I’m thinking of relief for my favorite movie: it is a movie with very few moments of relief: note about thinking about relief: I think of Christmas: note Christmas is not my favorite holiday: but I am thinking about Christmas in my favorite movie: it would not be snowing: Ripley would give Newt a present: something she found while scouting movements and positions of xenomorphs: really the gift is a scrap of someone else’s life: note former life: most of the colonists of LV-426 died: note the gift is wrapped in scrap paper: maybe pages from a sports encyclopedia: maybe a basketball star yet to be born is pictured on the scrap page: note this might mean something to Ripley: note that in a later movie in the franchise: Ripley briefly displays her skill with a basket and ball: note that movie isn’t nearly my favorite movie: even though it borrows elements from movies I like: note what matters: Ripley hopes the spirit of Christmas will give Newt some relief: Ripley returns from her scouting mission: note in the sub-movie of my favorite movie all of the space marines are dead: it is just Ripley and Newt living in the sad and dirty ventilation: Ripley and Newt are sad and dirty there: okay: maybe Hicks is there too: but he is injured and sleeping: note what matters: Newt unwraps the present thinking Ripley thinks it’s her birthday: Ripley will explain the meaning of Christmas in that ventilation: it won’t even really be Christmas or Christmas2: note in that future there will be christmas2: it will be just as warm and full of meaning: and full of relief: note like Ripley in my favorite movie: you can celebrate Christmas2 anytime: because it is about the heart and about love: you can carry that with you: here on Earth: or on LV-426

note about the sun burn on my ear: I continue to apply sunscreen to my left ear: I drive a lot: it is the ear to the sun when I drive to work: drive home from work: I travel in a straight line: this city is made of several straight lines: note to return to the condition of my ear: it is always burning: it is peeling: it is uncomfortable: it is swelling: I am worried about losing my ear: to melanoma

note about spending time with my son: my son wanted to spend the evening watching Naked & Afraid: he likes survival shows: note sometimes after watching survival shows he asks if it is illegal to buy a snake from a pet store so you can eat it: note I do not know the law regarding this: note I tell him it is an illegal act: he would like me to find a restaurant where they serve snakes and tarantulas and bats: there are more animals on this list: note he asked about giraffes last night: note butts on Naked & Afraid: there are lots of butt scenes on Naked & Afraid: I may think it is a good show because of the butts: however: they do not show all of the hardships: note a lot of places could use some relief

note about my Grandfather and his prosthetic ear: my Grandfather had a prosthetic ear: the left ear: he lost it one day: car accident: fell asleep at the wheel: drove a semi down a ditch: side view mirror sliced it off: note I once asked if the ear was found: then if it was buried in a little ear coffin: note no: and no: not even an empty little ear coffin: note the prosthetic ear: did not match grandfathers skin tone: was skin tone of dead chewing gum: spearmint: not fruit chewing gum: was sponge like: but plastic like: you could fold it in half and it would spring back to shape: however: it left a crease at times: note Grandfather did not appreciate this: note many people did not recognize the full worth of my curiosity: in the era of my curiosity: note that era echoes into my current period of curiosity: a sad ghost: note my opportunity to fold prosthetic ear: my Grandfather collected aluminum cans: note he was not an environmentalist: he liked money: he liked finding things in dumpsters: my job was to hold his ear: so it did not fall off in the dumpsters: also: to make sure he did not have a heart attack while dumpster diving: also: to tell my parents I was dumpster diving instead of my grandfather: if they asked: note I was paid for my time and lies: note I do not remember what I spent the money on

note about these notes: was going to title the post NOSES and write about noses I noted during my life: maybe another time

Pop Serial 5

nathaxnwalkerwerzbau:

hey i wanted to say that there is a lot of great work in Pop Serial 5, but my favorite stuffs in here is from Cassandra Gillig, whose awesome  “bitch im the central park hello kitty” finally sees print, & chad redden’s “The Crystal Plague” is an eerie off-kilter sci-fi New Age nightmare gone wrong? the whole thing is pretty much worth reading.

PS5 is in print and will be online soon. I appreciate being in a shout out with Cassandra Gillig. I’m still taking the issue in, but Jackson Nieuwland’s “The moon has nothing to do with snow” made me need to go to bed, wake up and meditate, then read it again, then go back to bed again. My boss skyped me with concern as to my absence and silence. It’s been a few days now. I don’t know what to reply. What to type other than ‘Things are different, bossman.’

chelseahodson:

Inventory #551: Thursday by Chad Redden
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REGARDING MERCY
Your name is Margaret.  My name is Chad.  Yes, it is late spring.  The game is Scrabble. Because the doctor said it might help reconnect memories.  No, Freeway does not have a silent T. F-R-E-E-W-A-Y
—Chad Redden

Thursday as INVENTORY

chelseahodson:

Inventory #551: Thursday by Chad Redden

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REGARDING MERCY

Your name is Margaret.
My name is Chad.
Yes, it is late spring.
The game is Scrabble.
Because the doctor said
it might help
reconnect memories. 
No, Freeway does not have
a silent T.
F-R-E-E-W-A-Y

—Chad Redden

Thursday as INVENTORY

NOTES 7/3/14

note about MOUNTAIN: my mountain: note about playing it songs: note about zooming out so Mountain is tiny in space: Mountain seems to express more when I am distant: note about the halos: when playing a cycle of lower notes: blue to violet halo around the atmosphere: note about faster notes: increase rotation and weather events: green halo found in middle notes: red halo found in upper notes

note about when things go wrong: when things go wrong like today and a few days ago: note everything went wrong between 6am-10am: note blame: was told when things go missing to blame the wood elves: note they live in the wood of your bed or house: note there can always be a little bit of wood in a house: note I grew up in a trailer: note there was a little bit of wood inside of it: note cannot link pictures: note searching for wood elves returns WoW wood elves: note the wood elves I am think of The Littles: note but now really thinking of The Secret World of Og: note this isn’t the case though: things go wrong: things go missing: things go wrong because things go missing: note I now blame it all on a 90’s hacker instead of wood elves: note maybe this is the matrix: note what I think my 90’s hacker is like: note to watch video after :07 mark: another note about my 90’s hacker: note this is why I hear Aphex Twin in my head most of the time when my days go wrong

note about Mountain: note about message in a bottle: sometimes it appears on Mountain: now it is not there: note objects on mountain: coin: pie: anvil: fire extinguisher: CD: garbage bin: barrel: top hat: note none of these objects is message in a bottle: note worried the message was important: note I am unsure how to read the message if the message was important

note about wondering if I am in the time before I am in a romantic comedy. note what made me wonder this: note 1: I am always bumping into people in a cute way: I am always dropping buckets of spaghetti on people in a cute way: note I carry around buckets of spaghetti: note I am the volunteer spaghetti man in my neighborhood: note I am not the neighborhood spaghetti sauce man: that is someone else: note I work with the noodles: but I am clumsy: I drop noodles on people’s heads: note I always apologize: note I always try to make a cute face: note they will not take away this job because: it is a volunteer position: no one else likes to cook spaghetti: note 2: I am charmingly clumsy: note see notes about my work as volunteer spaghetti man: note unsure of my charming: note you can feel charming and cute on the inside but not on the outside: note I am bad at picking out outfits: note I would be comfortable in a sack: potato sack: note 3: I don’t know of anything more plain than wearing a potato sack: note 4: I am not a small business owner: note I have ideas about small business: note I would like a small business where I invite people to sit in a virtual lazy river: note I need a lot of investment capital: note I cannot reveal more than I would like people to sit in a virtual lazy river: note this is my one really good small business idea and I don’t want anyone to take it away: note 5: I am a volunteer spaghetti man and it takes lots of architecture to design my virtual lazy river: note 6: I haven’t been to a wedding in a long time: this makes me worry that I am not living in or about to live in a romantic comedy: if you are having a wedding soon you many invite me

note Mountain expressed another thought: note I am worried about Mountain: image

NOTES 6/30/14

— note about visiting humane society websites in michigan: work related: note about world cup influence on puppy adoption: note link for “the world pup”: disappointment: note link did not lead to a picture of a pup the size of the world: note link did lead to a picture of a pup with soccer ball: note to keep expectations smaller: note related but unrelated video

— note about an unfinished conversation with Roberto Montes: about his book: note the title: I DON’T KNOW DO YOU: note Roberto wrote the poems on train: the people poems: “I’m not talented I just work best under stress and fear”: “Remember that awful music in Sonic. Where you’re drowning? It’s just that the whole time”: “Yes. It was a pretty morbid game about the dangers of capitalism and being a hedgehog.”

—note about looking at shrubs this weekend: to own: note to own and then set free: to set free within the woods: note no particular woods planned for freedom event: the idea of woods: the idea of freedom event: note idea of woods changed to idea of landscaping vandalism: planting mismatching plants within landscaped areas: note to throw off balance of original design: add more weeds and fallen wood: note logs with shelf fungus: add more bones: note to shop for bones

notes 6/27/14

—note to find 2 more jobs

—note about appearing in Jackson Nieuwland’s LEFT: 8 page poem: it wouldn’t end: note to be happy: note to remember to return edits this weekend: note to read PANK submissions this weekend: note to add 3k words to novella manuscript

—note to not look sad when carrying jug of cat litter down the sidewalk: when day comes to carry jug of cat litter down the sidewalk: noted 2 people carrying jugs of cat litter down sidewalk: different sidewalks: perhaps not sad: perhaps bad posture: note to sit up straight at work today

—note about reading Black Hole by Charles Burns last night: had a dream about my shin: not about my shin about something else: babysitting nephew: nephew was trapped in a refrigerator: it was yellow: it was not in a landfill: it was in a basement: used an ax: injured my shin: the wound on my shin was actually a nipple: the nipple lactated: not blood or milk: maybe spirit: note to self to reduce sodium intake before sleeping

—note to finish Speedboat: note to finish Treasure Island!!!: note to finish Swamplandia: due at library monday: Sun Bear on hold: Mr. Fox on hold: another week before Art of Cruelty is due: waiting at 6th spot for Every Day is for the Thief

—note to “discover why George Washington’s favorite dessert was chilled pawpaw”: pawpaw is a tropical-type fruit native to North America with a forgotten history: note to discover forgotten history: pawpaw noted by boss as a “native banana type thing found in Indiana”: and “it rots quick because of things and that is why it is never in stores.”

—note that J. Bradley noted a poem by me: information mapping: chunking: stanzas: note to feel nice about this

—note about dream guides: maybe every two weeks now: every week isn’t impossible: note about moving: note about jobs: note about summer schedule: note about novella manuscript priority

—note about driving by Salvatore Pane at gas station: note about car horn: now dead: note about honking at people: note about feeling confused when people honk at me: note about Salvatore Pane looking good while wearing a tie: note to look good while wearing a tie: note to discover tie wearing opportunities